Today, I miscarried – our hope had been for five years to conceive. I was crying out to God and needed not only to hear from Him, but needed desperately for a shoulder to cry on. My husband and I are in Scotland and 3,000 miles away from my Mommy, so I got on Facebook and emailed a friend. Kim, my friend, had posted the last line of your blog and boy it struck me! She had me read your blog and what comfort I found there.

Oh, how I am grieving, but my dark corner is just that – a corner. I do not know yet what is on the other side and my dancing may not be more than a few labored steps just now, but I WILL dance, I WILL sing, I WILL hope. And I will weep, for joy and with my Father Who weeps with me.

Thank you, Renee, for bearing your heart to the Lord and for us here. You have so encouraged me through your post, as much as Kendra did through her letter. Hope and depair in the same fabric… In the same blog, in the same Facebook message, in two different countries, in two different situations. HOPE NEVER FAILS. LOVE NEVER FAILS.

Thank you, Renee.

With much love and many prayers,
Anna

My name Chris, I am now in England but I am Polish man.Only Our Lord Jesus Christ know wahat your feeling in this time.I stay in the sam line and send to your whole family my word I Love so much and I would like be a partner in your ministry.
Chris

Thank you for all of your love,

Nikki

I write these words to you this evening in hopes that in the darkest of seasons that you will continue to see that “He” is “Good”.

When I heard the news of what happened through a close friend back on Christmas week, of course as many did at the time, I too began to pray for you, the children, but for you especially since when I first meet you and we had only had minimal contact I never saw you as a forerunner but as an eagle. Father does not have many eagles you know. My prayers for you I will not lie were always the same “Father help her to cling to you, to cling tightly. It is in the clinging that we see how Good you are, help her to cling to feel your liquid love like never before.”

As days went by so many of us went on with our own lives and I was no different, I will not lie to you the thoughts of Loux family would come into my thoughts and even prayers but as everyone knows our own lives begin to take form and shape again and different prayers and issues begin to invade the space of our lives and those prayers for the Loux family would become less as other’s or even our own family needs would come to the forefront.

I write all this Renee, because tonight I arrived home early from work something that almost never happens to me. I was tired but tried all I could to relax and soak in His love, a place that I treasure now being back in the marketplace. I feel off to sleep but was awoken by a dream of the phone ringing with a picture of Derek speaking to me through a picture type web camera. All I heard him say was to “Call Renee”. I repeated it several times to myself in the dream, not knowing why he of all people would even come into my dreams telling me to call you, but knowing deep inside that Father does speak to all of us in the night seasons. I awoke and knew that I did not have the connection with you to call you directly and well, what would I say? You do not know me. So I did what Father taught me so long ago to do when I dream and do not get the interpretation right away. I began to pray in the spirit seeing over and over again Derek in that web camera asking me to call you. Immediately I felt it was Holy Spirit asking me to intercede for you of course but also to let you know that I was not the only one Father was asking this from, that he is awakening many to do the same in this season of such deep pain that no words can express what you are feeling.

I obeyed and will continue to cover you in His precious blood through prayer and intercession, but Renee I wanted to share with you this as well, since in my covering you in prayer it lead me to your blog. My only hope is that these words will comfort you somehow and someway when no words can explain why and no physical earthly touch can fill the void.

Derek was and is still one of Father’s eagles, but you are as well. You have been placed here to be his earthly eagle, eagles are unlike any other species, they are fascinating you know, as you study the life of an eagle you will see what I am trying to say but cannot put into words. You and Derek were chosen to be His eagles. This is a season of clinging Renee, I read your words in this blog and they captured my soul and I know Father is so close to you right now, so close. I know that I know He will give you the grace and strength to soar again, just continue to lean and to cling, lean and cling in the midst of it all, for I know His intention is to have you soar like you never have before.

In Father’s Arms

I am in Kansas City next Friday – Sunday for Jason Upton & IHOP. I AM ONLY HOPING TO SEE YOU & FAMILY, if you have the time!!! PLEASE CALL OR EMAIL… 317-937-5500

You are an inspiration. Don’t give up.